i used to be sad but now i just feel nothing
my heart still pumps blood through my veins
and my nerves send messages to my brain
but i feel nothing

not happy not sad
this numbness has overthrown me
i cannot feel the pain that lives with in me
i cannot match my eyes with the smile on my lips
i'v completely forgotten what happiness is

but i guess feeling nothing is better than being overwhelmed with so many feelings at once
being flooded by such a strong desire
to make it all stop
that i'd want to end my own life

they say mental illness is a disease that they want to fix in you
but the fixing they do
just dulls your senses and kills some of the pain
it makes you numb
but hardly more sane