altschmerz.

the weariness with the same old issues that you've always had.

the same boring flaws and anxieties that you've been gnawing on for years.

the 15 year old with the hopefulness in their eyes that one day they won't have to look at themselves in the mirror with disgust at what they see,

hoping one day that they can gaze upon their being in any reflective surface and look with amazement at the way they look,

with the realisation having settled in that our body is our true lover,

the lover who tries so hard to keep us alive even though we plague it with the  negative thoughts from our minds,

she will always love you, even if it unrequited.