How difficult can it possibly be?
How f*cking difficult can it be to respect myself?
How the hell can I let him act and behave like this time after time?

I once promised myself that if he hurts me one more time
it's over for real, I'd call it quits
Shortly afterwards it happened again.
Did I leave him?
Did I respect myself for once?
No.
How I wish I could have respected and listened to my own needs
Because he's not good for me, no matter how much I try to persuade myself that he is

I wish he would be able to make me feel completed, respected, loved and accepted.
I would do anything to feel it, just for a split second, anything