I saw
the
deliciously
blue pulse
jumping
back and forth
under
my thumb
and
under
my wrist,
thumping
so slow
but wanting
to get
out.

and then
with
a knife
at one
hand
I began
to
cut the
jumping
one
first
on my
both
thumb.

Next,
also
in my
wrist.

Gleefully,
and
vaguely
happy
to see
it spitting
out
the red blood
out of
my
system,
As I
walk away.
And splash
It in
the bathroom
walls.

*I fade away