So maybe you look back and think ......
Wasn't a big deal and ya
I guess we did have some good times...
I mean idk ...
I don't really remember that much.........
And I suppose when you look back into "that" time.....
It feels like a nagging clingy
Photo album all covered in dust .
And the pages stuck together
Heavily laden with must.......
.........
The recollections I have are completely different ...... I remember the first time I set my eyes upon you....
My memories have meaning .... And my feelings are stainless ......
For you these will not be tainted in rust........
It was late August when I heard you say us for the first time ......
I hold dear to me those softer moments when you let your defenses down and talked to me like comrade....
You and me ......
Family ..........
What baffels  me is how I have to force my self to remember the  cruelest and most confusing pains you put me through ... Shattering my illusion of life and love........
All the times you start a fight just to leave & go hang out with some other guy.........
And I'd hide it from your parents     and
The kids .........
Taking the blame saying ... She's just taking a time out .... It's ok she'll be back tomorrow ...... Meanwhile
You been lieing to all our friends an family .........
Saying I am the one ......
Cheating and disappearing......
Trying to make the youngest boy take a bath and he's crying ......
" No cause mom's gonna leave  
...
And I still cry when I take a shower for the same reason ...... Been ...
6 long years .....
I can't get over you ........
To you it seems like *** is the big deal .
It was kind insignificant......
I know I should move on ..........
But I ..