I pushed you
Away
I pushed you
Secretly hoping, that you would, still stay.

I pushed you
And you still stayed
I pushed you
And you didn’t, go away.

I pushed you
For more
I pushed you
Too much.

I pushed you
Until your heart, was too sore
I pushed you
Even though, I only ever wanted, your love/affection/touch.

I pushed you
Because, I loved you
I pushed you
Because, I didn’t want, you to, leave me.

I pushed you
Because I wanted, the best, for you
in everything, that you, did do
I pushed you
I just wanted you to see,
All the things, that you, could (potentially) be.

I pushed you
And, in the end, you left
I pushed you
Too far
And, that was, just enough
For you
To let go.

From all that, pushing
I learnt that
My pushiness
Could have, that kind of
Cause and effect
On someone else’s emotions.

When, all that time
I felt that I was, being ignored
Or pushed away, myself
So from this, I kept pushing
To see, how much, you could take,
Not seeing, what was real, and what was fake.

Without realizing, how far I went,
And how long, you until I sent.
You packing.

From my pushing
I pushed you
Because, I wanted, you to stay,
I pushed you
From my dismay.

I realized after, it was too late
That I, did all this
Because I cared, about you,
And didn’t know, what to do.
So the only way, I knew how
Was just to, push you away.

23/12/21
© By HF-Whisper
11:04AM –12/12/21-9:06PM-From all that pushing
23/12/21-From my pushing