I never understood how people could drink tea right after it left the stove or how holding hands holds that much importance, or how many times i miss you counts over and over and how someone can do so much for one at a table for two and feeling like it, too not that one side, one-handed, one backhanded table tennis serve, practice wall *******. And i never understood how someone could take their coffee all sugar i never understood what physical intamacy was and how you could have both emotional and physical and how hard it is to stop myself from caring or how irrational i could be and how you can matter, you and your Bob Dylan, broken chair, black projector can matter, how grocery trips and carwashes can matter, how much i can care about something in no more than a month can matter, how i hope you can be after because i hope i can be too. If i could show you how much you mattered i would, I never understood how to before.