I have wasted half a year.
Half a year on you.
I will never get back
Those moments with my children
When, distracted, and dreaming, I gave them half my self
Or even less.

I will never get back
Complete certainty
That I am in the right life
That I have made the right choice.

I will never get back
The sleep I have lost
The love I would have made
The dreams I would have had
The books I would have read
The things I could have said.

Half a year
Spent obsessively logging on
Following you.
Drowning in music
Shutting everybody out
Shutting out myself
Shutting out my life.

What have I been doing?  
What have I been thinking?  
Nothing but you.
It is time to turn you out
Before I become nothing
Before I lose everything.