Even during seemingly normal days days I would deem okay, I find my mind drifting back to memories of liquor and pills oxy and xanax wax coating on my lips the kind of numbness that would make any addict jealous Liquor and pills are my way of making sure I donβt have to rely on days that are just okay to help curve all of the days that are not I long to believe things are over again so i can have every reason to let go again