today i realized im afraid
of unpaved roads- uncertainty
of crashing onto the rocks- pain
of waves dragging me away- losing control
of heights- falling

today my knees quivered at the thought
and i froze at the sight of them
i was unwilling to go on
i was tempted to go back
i almost stayed inside

today, however, i also i realized
that i can face them
with one breath at a time
with a guiding hand
with encouraging words

im not saying im not afraid anymore
but now im more afraid of not trying