what if

what if she’s just too tired
tired of your lies
tired of hope that’ll  never give me peace in all her 40 years
tired of the constant disappointment
what if ?
I just decided to pull the trigger?
gave in to the sweet surrender
letting the sweet nectar of darkness consume her.
covered in sweet nothingness. coverage in SWEET serenity
for so some time she has longed and Pleaded for the aching to stop
Yes but for a short moment in time it was with you
cursed she sees herself
and her savior became her end.
What if with one finger
Eyes may close
Breath become short
Wishful fulfillment becomes her peace
And finally becomes truth  
What if?