I wish I had friends. I wish I had people that cared about me or maybe even loved me but I have no one. I live in a lonely world trapped within my thoughts. I’m trapped within my negativity, I try every day to be positive but it never works anymore. I wish I was good enough but I never will be enough, I’m tired of everything, I’m so emotionally drained from everything. I know I don’t seem depressed, but I am, I’m tired of everything and no one sees it, no one sees that I’m close to being gone forever because I don't care anymore. I’m not ok, I wish I could be, but life is too hard to want to continue, everything around me is crashing, everything around me is collapsing on me all of this stress all of this sadness is too much I can’t take it anymore, I don’t wanna be here anymore I want to leave this world. I’m in a world that doesn’t even want me here, no one saw the signs early enough, no one sees all the sadness I hold, all the sadness that I conceal with a smile, all the sadness I conceal with a fake laugh, they just don’t see, they just don’t understand no one understands. I wish people would hear all the thoughts I had, because maybe then they would understand why I am scared of my thoughts, why I am scared of my own self because I know what I’m capable of but others don’t and that’s what scares me the most. I try every day to smile through the pain, but lately, it's been getting harder to hide my sadness, I’m scared for the day when people will see what I have been hiding in the closet. I'm scared that soon the closet and all the things I have held from saying will all be exposed.