Oct 2021
I have the most unbridled confidence in my love for you I know I reach out only to return with nothing but closed doors, But I'm never dissapointed. I am stalwart. I know as long as I am alive I'd take your hand in hold if you'd have me. I have faith that I am your brother. Have faith that I can be a lighthouse. And that I am a light. I can never give up those that I'd be lost without; without them on this blue beautiful earth.
As I come back to *my* senses. I miss my bestfriend. The hurt i inflicted from the hurt bursting from my seams. Its all too real to me. I wish I could apologize correctly, but my words as well as i construct them is all hopeless, I couldn't find all of them. And I earnestly hope you can forgive me for that. Yet I feel free. Ive let it go, and I want the balloon to come back to me, maybe it just needs time to learn to fly. I love you, and you all for reading that may have. This breakup is slowly breaking me back to myself. I hope you're listening above all else
