i once walked from Boulevard Pershing, near the hotel Concorde Lafayette to the west of Paris city centre 300 metres from the metro station Porte Maillot to... the 3 ducks hostel... 6 Pl. Etienne Pernet... upon arrival i was welcome by an American bartender... and when asked how my journey was... well, i walked... you walked?! yeah... i walked... my first time in Paris... like my first time in Stockholm... solo... in a hostel... upon landing it really was a city of lights... the Eiffel tower was my beacon and my hypnotism... once upon a time i had that pet project of going to capital cities alone... Athens... well... i thought: Venice might be better than Rome... i sure as hell i visited Berlin... i was going to hit on Prague before... the last year & some happened... 3 years in Edinburgh: i wish there were more... London dragged me back in... but... it's one thing to walk in a capital city... taking the public transport... it simply doesn't allow you to sample the entire: horizon of the city... the nooks & crannies that otherwise: a bicycle ride allows... just today i thought... enough of this area of makeshift London that's being eaten up... that the county of Essex is willing to give up... i need to get some urban salt on my face: you do return from a heavily urbane area with a residue on your face that looks like ***** salt... but feels like the purest of sands... from circa Havering-atte-Bower... a little village on the hill with Bower Wood Havering County park... oh... i'd say 1 mile from my home... from there to Canary Wharf via Canning Town... via Barking... taking the CS3... i passed... just after leaving Barking i came across architecture i can only best describe as... postmodernism "gothic"... gothic architecture looks menacing... so did all i passed... but it was gothic tinged with postmodernism... it was very much cubism meets Lowry... although there's this very short segment of the CS3 where you ride past the recycling centre at Beckton... all shaded by trees and a roundabout underpass... the route becomes very narrow and there are just enough turns to make you galvanize your speed a little... it's a brutal landscape... Barking in general is brutal... it feels very much like: Babylon with Pyramids... but the sun was shining today: and you know what happens when sunshine glees over Glasgow: it can almost feel like Edinburgh... sunshine elevates everything... just like Edward Hopper said: i just want to paint sunlight... even the grimmest: grimiest of place can be elevated & it doesn't have to feel all ******... before arriving at Barking i had to pass through the multicultural hub of Ilford Lane... sari shops... halal butchers... as a white immigrant: since i'm not... English per se: by the demands of "born & bred"... & even thought i was the only one of about 3 white, male faces... it somehow didn't bother me... seems like being a minority has had its perks all along! Asians girls looked at you like some curiosity equivalent to a spice mixture of cumin, cardamom, coriander... cinnamon... must be the suntan: the copper-neck appeal i sometimes acquire in the summer months... if these people are "supposedly" conquering these lands... do they think their... high-spiritedness and vigour will not wane under the scrutiny of the weather?! i sampled some of their imam rhetoric... yes yes... but once all the english girls have been vehicles for **** & revenge and rooted out... while the white boy'ohs are not reproducing with them? where's the revenge going to come from? that desert is going to dry up... these people will return to their own sacred rites of: oculus per oculus... an eye for an eye... no? i'm starting to see the bigger picture... the tomorrow: i'm starting to like living with a minority status... it's called Darwinism: proper... not Darwinism upon inception: with all that eugenic crap: let cousins **** cousins! this is... how a species adapts... i can't exactly grow a pair of wings or become invisible... i make concessions... i adapt by... well... making compensation leverages... if i'm not a white: native of these lands... i'll fit in such fine: or so i hope... after all... a monochromatic society makes much for nausea... esp. when i return to Warsaw... my grandmother is still living... when she dies... though... what reason will i have to visit that old... fable of a land of my birth? the English in me is already my own... i own it... i'm not just going to give it up... like i won't give up reading philosophy books in ****** since... they make no ****** sense to me in English: i'll just read them in one language... and translate myself an interpretation... that's how it's going to work... it worked just fine up to now... why should it stop? come to think of it... what happens in eastern vs. western households? oh you know: in western households if a man / woman is still living with their parents... rather than: living alone... & paying rent to some stranger... for some hope of reaching some one night stand quota... then they're LOSERS... there's a particular spice to this word... it's best associated with Sichuan Pepper... that tongue numbing sensation best associated with: how the French & the English slowly: but surely... lost the trill of the R... there's not much to LOSE when the fatalism of mortality has your ***... there's only a waiting game while some people amass more... and have to give it all up or... leave it to... failed ******* sons akin to: how the amassing of wealth & prestige of the Krupp family became Arndt von Bohlen und Halbach.... these supposed "losers"... amass nothing... leaving nothing... all the better for it... at least not a dead-end lineage... just dead-end per se... but... i can clean around the house... take care of the cats... be a custodian to the affairs of the "estate": make a variation of tortellini with a beetroot borsch... and... chances are... i will not see my parents enter an old-people's home... neglected: relegated to merely a dementia status... clingy or... how do those eastern inter-generational households fair... compared to the west's championing of individualism when... rent goes **** knows' where: Arab moguls? two fine examples... one door down a Nigerian couple in their 60s... their son & daughter still live at home... two doors down a Sikh couple likewise living with their son & daughter... their son recently managed to throw a houseparty that attracted circa 30 guests... oddly enough: he wasn't regarded as a: LOSER... opposite my house: an English household... the younger daughter will be moving two doors down parallel to my house with her would-be hubby... so she will be in: screaming distance from her mother's home... if i am to be paying rent?! to some anonymous ghost face ****... forget it! Darwinism doesn't imply: adapt to the hard-earned orthodoxy of eugenics in tow: after all... eugenics came prior to Darwinism: i don't care much for Darwinism... i didn't care much for the Copernican inversion of whether it's a heliocentric or a geocentric model... in terms of perspectives and coordination: orientation: i need the "flat-earth" model to get from X to Y... i don't exactly need a Z... unless i'm... ******* sailing! but even then... "Z" doesn't require me the allowance of... "the earth isn't flat"... sure as **** it does... if i'm going from X to Y... no? the anglo-saxon households will fall, last... when it comes to inter-generational living "fall-outs"... i don't mind the periodic celibacy patterns... if i feel the urge to "get some" after one of my feline companions entices me too much while grooming her: i'll ******* to the brothel and get it over & done with... i don't need a dating app to... waste my time over... dating apps... i so ******* oblivious to their existence i can ast least attest that happens in real life... i'm also out to not crave ambitions for offspring... funny how that works... well... so who's going to take care of you? me... with the proper incisions when the game is up... i figured out around cruxes on my body where bloodflow is concentrated... under my right-arm-pit... in my neck... all that's required is a hot bath... and plenty of mr. whiskers und ms. amber... i mean: for ****'s sake... reinterpret Darwinism with individualism: the "premise" stands: i will not give up my private library collection... cooking food others enjoy... ownership of two cats... but still "living" with my parents for... four empty ******* walls... and a chance to somehow... merely... bring back a dating partner for nothing more than a fling... it's like that quote i heard about Neopolitan cooking: minimum effort: maximum satisfaction... that's all life has to be... mind you: is it so... ******* unbearable to not be able to love your parents, esp. when you can? i'm always put off my white, western women, they want too much... they're never of interest to me: i know what game they're playing... i never heard of a herd of "individuals"... sure... rent... but we can **** in the garden... in the forest... like this one spice-up i picked up off of a park bench... a Thai Surprise... we ****** in the garden... so? Darwinism without a superiority complex of the people who conjured it up... can become... refreshingly... revelatory... you just don't need to line other people's pockets... i never used darting apps... never felt a dire greed to do so... CS3 is fine while cycling towards Canary Wharf... i like the grift... the grift... but the CS2 from Ilford towards St. Paul's... it's great *** Mile End: on your way back... but little Bangladesh coming in... it leaves me with a distaste... too much of Asia... not enough European postmoderist "gothic" grit.... nothing too much familiar with industrialisation... coming back on the Bow overpass at Stratford... an Asian couple... let's just leave a tinge of scrutiny on her... she looked like Cindarella: before donning on her ****-up make-up and her glass stiletto... she pushed the various traffic buttons and stood... in the middle of the bicycle route... thank god i was d0nning my sunglasses.. it's impossible... i was eyeing her up... she was eying me up... her boyfriend was next to her... eh... the niqab does little... easier to don a pair of sunglasses: if the concept of playing poker arrived for the Arabs "too late": i'm pretty sure the ninja attire could be made simultaneous to the niqab... chicken or the egg... did the niqab give birth to the ninja attire, or what it... ?
but there's a trajectory where household living resembles little what: investment in wholesale looks like... i like to think of Darwinism as a way to adapt... to make concessions... they're not pretty concessions... as an ape... supposedly... i can hardly make peacock remarks... or therefore: peacocking... years later though... but by then... the fear of exploitation will summon a paranoia in me of diabolical proportions...
i will have to summon: ****! mode.
that being said... CS2 ius great on your way back from Canary Wharf.... to... the outskirts of... what is London... what isn't London... best life in Paris, though... best life after life's over: Edinburgh: for sure... in that respect... London's traffic.