Will you notice
When I'm not there?
Will any part of you care
When you see I didn't show?
Will you feel an ache in your chest
That I chose not go?
Did you hope I would be there to welcome you?
Were you surprised when I wasn't?
All this time gone by
And I still can't look you in the eye
Every word on the tip of my lips
Can't seem to reach you
Blocked by this ****** elephant in the room
Because, yes
You still appear in my dreams
Saying the sweetest of things
But so much changed
After you walked away
I wonder if you would be proud of who I've become
Because I can't decide if I am
I wonder if you've changed
Though you seem the exact same
I wonder if these two new people
Could ever get along?
Then there's a silence
One I used to love
But now I'm searching for words
All familiarity is gone
I want to asked if you cared
When everyone but me was there
But I'm afraid the answer would be
"No, I didn't care."