It's been a while since you've seen my eccentric style before your eyes
I've been inactive for a bit but a few events made me realize
Why I'm here, to do what I love most and never lose hope on my dream
So I think I'll share my mysterious fear with such inspired minds and blow off some steam
I'm not the best with words and social awkwardness is my domain
I may look like a social butterfly but that's because people believe I'm always sane
I'm a gamer by heart and a poet nature
I rap a bit, have an inner Squidward and I'd think there's nothing greater
But to be honest that's why I think I'll never be great enough
I put on act, pretending I'm not bothered but at the end of the day I'm the only person I can't bluff
My poker face is strong, but I can see right through it
I look at my eyes only to see that they look flushed
I can't keep my hands straight knowing I'm not suited, I feel crushed
I watch my dreams slip away, I try to hold em' but it's almost not my call
So I fold my hands and drop my head in shame even though the blind is small
See my mysterious fear is that'll I'll never be good enough at anything
I try to play my best, write my best, perform my best but I keep spiraling
I peek at my best then I peak before success, just when I wanted more not less
I go all out, I brawl out, then descend because ***** Diana's giving me stress
Sometimes I don't know if I'm confident in my ability
I'm barely sure if this is where I'm meant to be
I underrate myself, that's the only reason I'm sold short
When things get too drastic I turn into Usopp, ready to abort
The mission because my intuition tells me that I'll never be great
This is my fate, I want to see what the future holds but I'll have to wait
Actions speak louder than words that's why now is the best time to work on my faith
I can't waste a single second not while my mental's in good shape
The weather is a bit cloudy and I live with this Ominous Winds, but tonight I escape
I put my trust in you my Lord, I promise this opportunity won't go to waste