I tightened the circle let the lines loosen, then in my state of confusion pulled them tightly.
I subtracted loved ones nightly, despite my social media connections my real-life affections became whispers in the distance from previous family members and friends I’ve loved.
With a noose I constricted till it was too perfect. Then I ****** it. It was like when I was biting my tongue just hard enough to hurt but not enough to cut that slippery tool off.
I choked and cough felt the loss as I tried to break my own neck. I signed my own check, by happily self-secluding, and the excuse I was using was the best scape goat.
As grief scraped my throat, I tried to cleanse my palate stirred my mind like a salad all vegies and greens mixing, lying and saying it was healthy but really just tricking myself into doing what I was always going to do.
Death by a thousand losses, each cut cost me a fraction of my identity and hopeful personality.
Until my corpse swung from the rafters and tears sprung from melancholic laughter.