Last year I went on a sick leave from work and I’m yet to be expected to return from it. After I left, not once have I comfortably thought about going back.

When I was still actively working I often made comments like: “this place is a mental institution” and “why do people here think there job title represents their identity or something?”. I realize now that place really is a mental institution, my whole experience reminded me of “One flew over the cuckoo’s nest” and they are unable to admit it because they are incapable to see it or better yet, they lack the capacity to change it. Ego, ego, ego and not a soul driven purpose to see in there.

Most of the men acted as if every bit of attention equaled a romantic interest or some quest into wanting to ****** them or wanting anything from them. Every little thing I did for myself, they strangely made it about them. It is one of the most bizarre situations I ever stumbled upon. Or the constant biased opinions of other people or about subjects totally unrelatable to them and then still thinking they have a realistic view on the matter, woow the ignorance from people who supposed to be highly educated.. Everyday I started to notice more and more, for example the insecurities of women and even worse the jealousy and the competition they constantly felt. Nothing empowering at all, instead they saw my healing and building capabilities as a weakness. Wooow. The toxicity really blew my mind. None of them are used to healthy environments to thrive in, instead they completely fall victim to the Ego Play and use manipulation to communicate with both men and other women. WOOOW.

Yes, I understand that this happens everywhere. But I’m writing this as a highly spiritual and empathic person, who never took part in these kind of behaviors. For me it’s extremely unnatural behavior to do anything consciously that isn’t good for the soul and I refuse to lower myself in such a way or any way for that matter.

At some point I even thought I was going mad for not being to relate to anyone or anything. I thought it must be me. I decided to stay not changing the way I am, while actually feeling extremely off about it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that people were mean () so there was no direct issue or anything. But I neglected to follow my intuition and chose easy money instead. The rest is history in what happened after, but it all came down to this one thing. I did not listen to the voice within when I saw that place for what it really was. Ha! Sooo this world’s problem in this age, but hmmkay..

My current environment is me, my home, my soul quests. I’ve decided to not entertain anything that doesn’t resonate with my heart anymore. In my case that meant breaking up all my relationships in order to make way for my kind of people. Because I know they are out there, wanting to connect with me too. I’m excited about my environment again. So to whomever that needed to read this and recognizes a bit of themselves: Always listen to the voice within. It will always be the right thing to do.