I'm trying,
But this feels way to familiar.
My demons must of found me .
I'm trying,
But I'm exhausted,
Physically, mentally and emotionally.
I'm trying,
To figure a way out.
So I don't have to go back to this.
I'm trying,
Yet most have turned against me,
Even my own son.
I'm trying,
I really gave it my all this time.
Hope is deadly sometimes.
I'm trying,
But I'm not even sure why.
History has taught me it will always repeat itself.
I'm trying,
To find some positivity,
While everything I've worked for is being stripped from me.
I'm trying,
To find the solution,
To finally stop this insanity.
I'm trying,
But can't anyone see I'm failing,
I got nothing left in me.
I'm trying,
To just find somewhere I belong.
I have searched my whole life.
I'm trying,
But I'm so **** angry
At life, at God and at myself.
I'm trying,
But I'm so sick of being disposed of,
Like a piece of trash.
I'm trying,
But I can't do this much longer.
I'm gonna break.

L. Mack

7/25/21