I feel wounded
Your words and actions
They hurt me and haunt me

I could ask why
But why doesn’t lead anywhere
So why even bother

I both understand
And don’t understand
Friendship

What is friendship
Exactly
When it can be simultaneously

Ecstatic and
Hurtful
As we all evolve

What is a foundation of friendship
Built upon
When it seems to no longer exist

My inner child
Cries out
Enough

She feels hurt
Feels wounded
Feels tired

There’s such a feeling of
Tiredness
It’s overwhelming

Numb
Sometimes I numb out
Protecting myself from the hurt

Holistically I know
That to feel
Is to heal

But feeling hurts
It’s hurting me
To lean into

Those feelings
Of hurt
Of frustration

Of feeling like
What the **** happened
And why am I constantly misunderstood

Gah
It’s out
I’m misunderstood

I’m unique
I’m loving
I try to be kind

And yet
My words don’t resonate
My conversation doesn’t flow

My passions
Are separate
From those around me

Maybe I should just
Let myself be
Me

**** the misunderstandings
I can just express myself
And be me

But can I
Am I capable of that
And what if I’m judged

Hm but then the question is
Would I rather hold myself back
In fear of people’s judgements

Or fully express myself
And feel
Alive

The wounding will come
The wounding will go
I will be here

I hug myself
Sit in nature
Process the feels

I am a beautiful being
I am worthy of being loved
I deserve understanding

Yes I am
Yes I do
Yes