As you can see he affects me every now and then. It's my story not his. He is the abuser and I am the victim. He knows he is a monster and I want him to live in his guilt. I shouldn't write about him so much but those things had to be said. I didn't want to feel alone anymore. Information among poets and readers is sacred. He may be my friend but he deserves to have his secrets somewhere so I chose here. We dated for a week, 3 years ago. It's my story not his. In a way this is justice.