Living on the borderline,
I’ll tell you I’m fine,
But really I’m broken inside,
Scared and living life inside the lines.

My friends don’t understand,
Employers will say your not fit for this role,
I’ll nod my head and walk away without a sound.
Because the truth is I am not fit for this world,
I’m too ill for society yet not ill enough for hospital.
Labelled as unstable and stigmatised as dangerous.

My psychiatrist will tell me I’m not trying hard enough yet 10 minute appointments won’t show you much.
You don’t see my pain, you don’t see my strengths,
lost in a world that doesn’t make sense.

The world isn’t built for people like me, lost, confused and riddled with anxiety,
I might be living in extremes
But don’t be discouraged,
I can love you intensely,
Please give me the courage.

Wondering if I shall ever be ok?
Scared and alone,
Cowering in shame,
Feeling like I’m on a decline,
living life on the borderline.