I used to think
that maybe
if I tapped the doorframe thrice
or switched the lights on and off (nine times)
or missed every crack in the pavement
then maybe
just maybe I wouldn't lose you

and I used to believe
that when the stars shone at night
they were sent to watch over
and keep me safe
from the things I may do

and I kept to my routines but
I woke up on a cold morning
and you were gone
and no tapping doorframes
or turning lights on and off
or missing cracks in the road
could bring you back

so I didn't bother

and the stars are burning out
and one day they may just end us all
they are no beings
sent to care
or calm
they are ruthless
designed to fight
and succeed

so I stopped believing

(you took away my dreams
when you left)