Why am I  inflicting pain on others?
What did they do to me?
That makes me so angry?
And when i am angry I feel like i want to hit somebody
That is terrible
Because I am hurting the other people
And that alone is called assault
Yes I can be charged with assault
And I will end up in jail
I been in Jail before
And it wasn't a nice place to be
God I know that I have to apologize to those that i hurt
God I am not sure if the people will accept my apologies
God I don't like to hurt people
God I  am a strong men
And I know that when I hit people I could **** them easily
God I need to stop hurting people
God I want to have friends and not enemies
God I love you
And I want you to know that
God I have lots of friends in my life
God my friends respects me
God why can't I respect my friends
Because my friends need my respect
God I am a human being
And you created this human being that is me
With your holy hands
God I feel more relaxed now
And I am happy to be relaxed
God I know that you love me
Because I am one of your children
God I promise that I will behave now
Because I need to behave now
God I need help with  my anger
God I am having a good night sleep
God I need to go to bed early every night
So that I can have a proper sleep
God I don't wake up tired anymore
I wake up feeling refreshed
God I want to worship you every day
God I have feelings
God I am taking my medication for depression
God I never miss my medication
God I am a good person
God winter is here
And I must tell you that I hate it
God outside is very cold
God I need to write my thoughts on my computer
So I don't forget it
God will you give me another chance
God I love myself
God I will pray for my dear friends
God I love the moon shining in the sky
God I can't wait for this day to end
Because I want to return to my bed
God I love my bed
God my bed is very cozy and warm
God don't ask me to sing you a song
Because I can't sing
God will I be here tomorrow
Because I just want to live
God I need to live my life now
Every single day
God I will meditate because by meditating it will help me to stay calmer
God I want to learn to forgive people
God I have to learn to have patience with people
God I want to stay out of the hospital
Because hospital is a terrible place to be
God there are people that supports me in my life
God I am feeling bad for hurting people
God I don't even know if people will accept my apologies
But I feel that I need to apologize to the people that I hurt
God i got money to buy my food
God I got to learn to love people
God I hope that I can forgive myself for doing bad things
God I know that we can't put a price on health
God I love my home
God my home is my sanctuary
God I want to live in peace
God I am a good Christian
God I need to have a balanced meal
God I know that you died on the cross for my sins
And came to judge me
God I don't mind that you judge me
Because that is your job to do
God I want you to bring the sun for me
Because I need the sun
God let me tell you how I feel
God I am feeling good about myself
God I am so sad that the birds had flown back south
Because I miss their symphony
God we said good buy to summer a long time a go
And now we said hello to winter
The winter is very long and boring
God I don't judge people
God I accept people the way they are
God I never smoked a cigarette
God I have healthy lungs
God I never drunk any alcohol
God I will stay sober
God life is tough
Good I have a hard life
God soon the morning will end and the afternoon will arrive
God please tell me that you love me
Because I want to hear from you that you love me
God in the winter it gets dark very early
And I hate that
God I have plenty of love to give to my friends
God I want to learn to deal with my anger
Because I feel that it is getting out of control
God I am hungry for your words
God please preach the bible to me
God use me where ever you need me
God I been sad now for a long time but I never cried
God I want you to end this day now
Please bring the night now
God let the moon shine in the sky
God I want to see the moon shining in the sky
God I want to be a part of your world
God I can't live without food or water
God please feed me every day
God i feel very bad about the things that did
God I want to hold you in my arms
God I want to kiss you
God we belong together
God we have a good relationship going
And I feel that we need to work together on our relationship
God please guide me where ever you want me to do
God I am not good with money and that is why I never have money on me
God when I have money I spend it very fast
God your my father and I am your child
God what more can i do for myself
God I am not feeling depress right now
God every Sunday I come to your house
God you are the healer and I feel that you have healed me
God I believe in you
God I trust you
And I know that I got to take care of my health
God I have to say good bye to you right now
Because I am going to bed
Don't worry God because I will take care of my hygiene
God right now I have lots of energy
God I am not feeling stressed out
God the trees are now bare for the winter
God this year is ending fast
God I worry about my anger issues
God I worry about my health
God I worry about my sleep
God I promise to be good
And not harm any body anymore
God I am not a killer
When I need you God I will pray to you
And I hope that you will answer my prayers
God the time went fast
It is now mid night and I still up writing away on my computer
God here I am praying to you
Today it is dark and grey
There is not much sun during the winter
God I am happy to be alive
God I know that I have a good life
God you never let me down
But I let you down so many times
And I want to say sorry  for letting you down
God it is hard to express my feelings when I talk
I prefer to write my feelings on my computer
God I already made so many mistakes in my life
And I have learned from my mistakes
God I don't want to talk about the past
God I want to talk about my future
God I need to talk about my future now
God it is only winter and it is a warm winter night
God rescue me when I am feeling depress
God I don't want to feel depress anymore
God I have so much to be thank full for
God I am very generous when I give something to others
God I don't want to fight anymore
Because I find fighting to be very bad for me
God I want to live that life that I live that is full of freedom
God I don't want to think about bad stuff
God I want to throw the bad stuff in the garbage can
God the world needs freedom
When will there be freedom in this world?
God mental illness is not a joke
God I have a mental illness
God there are countries that have war
And th innocent people are dying every day
God please tell me when the war will end?
There are young children being trained to be soldiers
In this brutal war
There are shortage of food and medical supplies
They are blowing up churches houses but not hospitals
The people who make the bombs to use in the war are getting rich
People it is time to stop the war now
This brutal war is going on for so long
Some people are suffering from post stress disorder
Why kids can't be kids?
Why kids can't play?
Kids have the right to their education
It is time to stop child labour in the third world countries
We are polluting the earth
We are killing the wild life
And marine life
The oceans are already polluted
What are we going to do when there wont be anymore fish in the oceans?
I don't think that we will be able to save the marine life and the wild life
Soon I believe that the fishermen will be out of jobs
We have so many refuges living in Canada
And Canada is their home also
We are so lucky to live in Canada
Because there is no war in Canada
There are people from different countries living in Canada
God I am not afraid to die
I know that I will die some day
I don't know the hour or the day that I will die
God I still have a life to live
And I will live it
God I love my life
Because it is simple
God I need some fresh air
I will go out soon and get some fresh air
God I never took peace for granted
God I don't take my health for granted
God I am taking good care of my health every single day
God put  smiles on my face
So that I can smile
I think people want to see me happy and not sad
I know that I have a beautiful smile
God I want to live in the real world
Because I need to live in the real world
God I am a dreamer
And I don't dream big
Yes God no body will pay me to dream
God we will praise you every day
God there are times that I need a break from people
God I never lied to you
God I am always telling you the truth
God I must say that I am  a bully
God I am feeling so ashamed   for have behaved badly
Do you understand me?
God I need to be a roll model for others
God I don't know where to go for help when I am upset
God should I turn to my friends and tell them that I am upset?
Will my friends understand that I am upset?
Will my friends help me to calm down when I am upset
God I know that I can turn to my friends for help
God I very to live my life to the fullest every day
God so many people had broken my heart already
God can you fix my broken heart
People don't call me a saint
I am not a saint
Because I am always hurting
God I want to live la vida loca
God I am not hearing voices
There is no body talking to me
When I sleep I snore very loud
It is terrible that it is happening
I sleep all thru the night
And I never wake up in the middle of the night
Sleep is very important for me
I need to go to bed early every night so that I can get a proper night sleep
God watch me while I sleep
God I will get over with my sadness
God I believe in children
God I am the hero in the children's life
God I  had dreamed that I reached the sky
And I had written my name on the sky
God I  am feeling rested today
Because I just woke up now
God i am not a stranger to my depression
God sometimes I feel that I been on a roller coaster ride
And it keeps moving very fast non stop
God I am afraid of heights
God I never want to sleep in during the morning
Because if I sleep in in the morning I will be waisting the day
God you gave me a blessing with your holy hands
God I am not selfish
God I will never hurt you
Please try to understand that
God I  will try to keep mii cool
I know that will be hard to do
But I got to do it now
God I blame myself for hurting people
I will forget about it now
And move on with life
It makes me sad to know that i hurt people
God I cried so much today
Because I am sad
And there are tears that are falling from my eyes
God please wipe the tears from my eyes
God I  never bottle my feelings up
God I let my feelings out
God I  must tell people when I am angry
I don't know if people will understand that I am angry
God I  am up already and it is a new day
It is two in the morning
I am full of energy
I sometimes act on impulse
That is a terrible thing to do
God I am a people's person
God I want to be around people
God you gave me a brain to think
So I must use it
God it is winter time
And the weather keeps changing
That is how people get sick
People tell me that I am a good men
And I believe that I am
God I hope that people are praying for me
Because i need some prayers