On a light raining day
I sat by the river bank
My wrist ached
My heart flows out through my eyes
My mind screamed from my hand
A flick of the sharp razor
Brings peace to me.

On a light raining day
I sat at my window seat
My wrist ached
Like the other day by the river bank
There's no one in the house, I thought
This is a perfect chance
To run away from this hideous life
And so does every other day I thought of that
I failed.

On a stormy night
In my room
The only light of the night
From the moon it shone passed my window
To every area of my room
Lifeless shadow dance around
And there is me on the same window seat
Smiling weakly at the outside world
This time I'll be gone for sure, I thought
Blame it on me for being weak
Blame it on me for taking in the negative
But also blame my parents and the world
Blame them for giving me pressure
Blame them for being stereotypical.

On a sunny day
Where children are laughing
And a lifeless me on my bed
The pain was unbearable
But the blood flowing out made me smile
A weak smile on my face
Is what they saw when they found me
The face of my parents
The pain that struck them
The pain that struck me
It may be the same
Call me a selfish young lady
But it was worth it
All the pain
The loss of blood
Everything.