I am a bit stupid, drove home alone under the influence. Talking and ranting like it's the end. Wishing I never had to live in pretend. Always attempting, but everyone's avoiding. I get led on but then they leave. Always putting in that effort I guess it's better then a cheat. Do I deserve to be punished this long? I never knew what I did wrong. Always that creep, that's why I hardly speak. Repeated that cycle a couple of times then went to drink. I allow that insecurity to shrink. Going home alone, about ready to turn off my phone.