is it normal
to grow deathly afraid
of the bacteria in your throat
is it normal
to pleasure your system
when you don't even smoke
is it normal
to be in love with the warmth
when it knocks you out
is it normal
to space out in class
and live in the clouds
is it normal
to dream about him
though he doesn't know your name
no, i guess
it's not normal
but should i be ashamed?