we said
no strings attached,
but i still
got caught up in that.
we said
it wont mean a thing,
but i still
imagine you and i, just sitting.
sitting side by side,
my smile i try to hide.
your hand comes closer to mine.
i pray for our fingers to intertwine.
but instead,
'i should get going'
is what you said.
the next day,
when you asked me
if i wanted to come over and stay.
stay the entire night with you.
i thought this was a dream come true.
but when i arrived,
your eyes looked deprived
of human touch.
but all i wanted to do
was learn more about you.
i pushed you away,
but you said i should stay
that you would even pay.
i stared, and hatred filled.
in that moment, the earth stilled.
i slapped him so hard, his teeth clattered.
and i ran home crying.
my only thoughts
we're thoughts of dying.
we said
no strings attached,
but i still
got caught up in that.
2 months gone by,
haven't heard
a single word since.
but i still lie
and cry
late at night,
of the troubles i fell into.
of all the troubles i've been through.
and the pretty things said
to make me love you.