i spend more time fearing myself and wishing I was different than hating the person who ruined my life i force myself to act sad so people know I'm not alright
im hurting the people who love me again like a washing machine on rinse i repeat
sad songs are more appealing than a full meal i can't remember the last time i looked in the mirror and felt real
i throw around terms of diagnosis because im scared to know its real i joke about my problems because its the only way i can feel
i spent three months completely numb and didnt really care i lie to my therapist about how im doing because its easier staying here
my mum looks at me like a stranger where did her little girl go
dad doesnt really speak to me the distance will just grow
im stuck in my room, my mind, my life im stuck with a key in my hand