this irrational instinct
that devours me like a beast
left with the lack of the comfort
you used to give me

sinking in the flicker of you hovering in the air
i took you as an inherent part of my soul
forgive me for trying to fill that void
a fly attracted to the fire
begging for a felling  
i was addicted to every dose of you

walking in the dark
consciousness fading
messed signals
unfinished thoughts
life weights upon my shoulder
what is this all about?