I am going through these phases in my life at the moment,
Easing into them and learning not to stress, I am often reminded that life stops for no one, and it adds upon the feeling.
I am taking it day by day yet sometimes my mind takes control over my body, and I feel like I am stuck in this realm of disturbance and agony.
The concept of change is an alternative reality for me, and I feel like I am heavily lacking in the sense of understanding that this is the stage of adulthood.
Time is taking me over day by day and sometimes I can't even imagine myself growing older, and it is almost my time. I feel like I have cheated death for the past four years, and that I am an outsider on this land.
The disturbance and agony quickly grows into suicidal and depression with no way of escaping. Slowly, I feel like I am deteriorating in my own body, and at this point in time,
I am letting go of myself, and putting all things above me.

I just apologize if I have ever wronged you, pray for me and forgive me.