My heart breaking slowly. I miss you Girl with Grayish-Blue Eyes! I have never stopped loving you. I never stopped falling in love with you. It's been 6 years since I lost you to death. I have grown into a rebellious, fearless bisexual woman. You inspired me with your life and my memories of us. I felt your love for me beyond death. I knew you would fulfill your promise. You have never left my heart because no one can replace what we had. Our effortless, endless, loving, caring, soulful, selfless, once in a lifetime and unforgettable friendship or whatever it was. I think our narrative for our love story went beyond friendship because I have never looked someone the way I had looked at you and my broken heart can prove that. I think you took a piece of my heart when you went to heaven because that part of me is vacant. You had me with your grayish-blue eyes and free spirit because no matter how big you went for my birthday all I really needed was your smile, your laugh, your warm hugs and your voice to fill that part of me. I would have asked you out if you would just stayed alive. Now we will never know. I still have the journal you wrote in. I read it every chance I can. You taught me how to live and I am grateful for you every day of my life. I see why God chose you to die and let me live. You fulfilled your mission early and mine never ends because you saved me in so many ways. I hope I was worth the trouble because I didn't know how to say I love you to anyone until I lost you to death. You brought out The Phantom in me and my wild side is devoted to you.