it comes like a flash flood washing out all in its path where moments ago was happy now all that's left is ash a bitter desperation hollowed out emptied to the core and in those terrible moments I wonder how much I can endure and then the sun comes out the land is green and lush and I wonder really what had upset me so very much that had driven me to thoughts of crushing self destruction an uneasy peace breaks out the path clear of obstruction I breathe deeply and wait for the next storm to come