i used to draw tarot for you and i still do sometimes but now when i do i feel like i'm spying into the walls of your mind without your awareness having to guess on my own which walls hold back what i can't tell what you put there to protect you vs what you're trying to cage and run from you said i could still do it even if you weren't there to watch the cards fly as they knock down each and every last one of those walls as if it were a game of dominos i am not scared of what i may discover i am scared of breaking something fragile that you have hidden from our sight for your own safety and that's why i still feel guilty and because i know that people knowing how you feel is one of your greatest fears