No one sees the pain that captivate me hear my cries hear my heart pounding and begging for a soul mate no one sees my dreams for a family shattering to the ground it’s my heart against my brain and my brain has won hiding myself from love and intimacy because of insecurities thinking back to things I can’t undo or change makes my pain worse slowly breaking down for the 100th time I think I might be at my breaking  point I try to stay strong and let go some days it work and other days it hurts ignore the hurt to be ok but there’s only so much I can bottle up sooner are later it’s gonna explode crying in my room again but I know tomorrow I’ll just ignore the pain again ripped to pieces no body sees this I give out advice make sure their alright  but I’m dying inside put on a strong face to keep everybody happy but deep inside I’m dying I check in to make sure your alright but ignore me at all times.