I have control over this

I tell myself as I open the same drawer eight times in a row and reorganize it in the same way over and over


I will be on time

I think locking the door only to unlock it the next second to check if I put everything in the right place before leaving


I am going to get a full night's sleep today

I assure myself whilst rushing through the flat with already another seven tasks in mind that need to be completed before going to bed


I do not need to be worried

I answer myself regarding my reoccurring thoughts of thread and fear of losing control


I've got this

I whisper collapsing on the floor after excessively cleaning the apartment at three in the morning