Yes, a young version of myself
would be happy to see who I am today.

However,
I don't feel a sense of
~pride~
(Picture rainbow letters if you wish)

It's been a hard year.

The first
Since I've really been "out".

But it's been deafeningly lonely
And confusing

Lately -
I don't recognize myself at all.

Maybe I never have,
or never will.

Seems everyday I lose more confidence.

Maybe it's the drugs
Or the alcohol
Or the ******* pandemic
Or maybe everyone just feels this way
and I'm a raging narcissistic

I saw a quote today
"Growth will also feel like loss."

It's fitting.

Seeing as I feel like I lose myself more and more each day.