right now
sitting here
i'm thinking about being the same
im thinking about changing who i am to impress
im thinking about you
i'm thinking about the distance between us
im thinking about death
im thinking about church
im thinking about conspiracy
im thinking about how you can walk away from something that meant so much to you
and say it meant nothing
when you called me your everything
but remembering that sometimes everything turns into nothing
Thinking about how i want you back
but thinking about why were not together in the first place
because i'm not romantic enough
and how i wanted to keep us private
thinking about how i ****** things up
and thinking about how to put things back together
thinking about how to find myself throughout all of the thinking
and how going to sleep brings me more relief than being awake