I want to block you so bad But whats the point When I'm just going to Turn around and unblock you Again Seeing your face Seeing your kind words to others Triggers the memory Of how you first ignored me How you gaslit me With the "my guns are so tight" Comments How you treated me Like I wasn't worth your time Except where you Could use my material To fill airspace You treat everyone differently Than you treat me I wish I could keep you blocked But I don't I sometimes think I'll wash my hands Of the entire community Walk away and Leave all of you behind Perhaps someday I will Love me, want me, talk to me Or don't I don't f'ng care I deserve better treatment Than I can get from you I'm good enough I'm worthy You're blind You'll only miss me When it's too late Just like all the rest