Anxiety building from within causing me to lose control over common sense.
I have lost what sense I have left.
I'm simply afraid, afraid of death
Afraid not to be alive yet I die inside.
I can see that any clear sight I may have had has slipped away.
I'm lost now truly lost.
Will I hurt myself to stop this pain?
I'm certain that I will. I ask the questions I already know.
Why?
Is it my hope? It is unclear to me but what i do know is not what I need an answer for.
It is what I do not understand that tears me apart.


This is not finished.