Never met
But he feels so close
And gave me a feeling
I had almost forgot about
A feeling that was so old
No one ever came near her
The girl alone in the corner
Alone and sad ever since the break
Her love
Her everything
Left her with nothing but questions
Now another seemed to find her
Even though we have never met
His kindness make me giddy
And remind me how beautiful a day can be
Part of me wants to cry
Part of me wants to laugh
But slowly
The girl in the corner is starting to come back
Back home
Back to reality
It has only been recently that I found myself again
And I found it through music
The same song that save me years ago
The artist that is my favorite again
My mind is clear for once in years
Even after my devil made a mess
And the stalker burned all trust I had with people
After having my friend turn
Family torn
And pushed away by my own blood
Even after that
I feel comfortable once again
Comfortable to be the person I choose to be
And though it has been quite a while
Years since I picked her
The girl in the corner
The one who cried for years
Who was beaten by friends
Pushed past the point of breaking
Cast out from society
And even held her life in her hands
A simple broken, scared girl
That's who I choose to be
The one who can love and not think
The one who can heal any wound she touches
The one who isn't afraid of the world
She has dealt with everything
Yet she still walks
She walks through everything that life throws at her
And even if I write this with tears
That is who I choose to be
The innocent girl who didn’t know how bad the world was
Or how quickly a family could be torn apart
A little girl who wanted to be loved by everyone
Before the world turned sour
And the little girl changed to a scared woman
Before her world changed
Just a little girl
Who could laugh and enjoy life
And did not hate her reflection
That girl
That is who I want to be again
Kind words were a privilege before
Having to be on guard at all times
And I know I changed
A little hurting started to grow after the first one
But after the incident
That's when she had to grow up
And fight to live every day
A living hell was normal for me
Unsure if it was my last or not
It was a game I use to playback, then
When I really lost who that little girl was
But that little girl found a voice through the hell
A woman scared for life
Yet no one can see it
But woman who learned how to fight
That woman grew
Harsh words to everyone
No one could get close
She made people bow to her
Even without saying a word
And through everything
I also wish to be this woman
Because the girl and the woman are the same
But sadly is another that I know I am
And that is me
Unsure the age
But simple things can make the tears come now
But when in front of others
Nothing happens
Push away as a child
Family torn apart because of an action
Losing friends who played me
Completely alone
Screaming a silent scream
No one saw till later
After the damage was done
And things I enjoyed
I don't do anymore
Holding my own life in my hands
Having to choose life or death
And crying myself to sleep most nights
I have to own it
And even though it doesn't seem like it
I want to be all of them
A caring little girl
And strong woman
But also understanding of what can happen
That is me
This who I choose to be now
After the pain
After the fights
After the isolation
I want to be them all
Because they are all me
And now I feel like I have found that again
The missing piece of a puzzle
The complete the picture
Not knowing it was missing
Till someone offered it
A little girl
An independent woman
But also a person who knows pain
And has many scars that are not seen
But that doesn't stop her
From finally enjoying life
Once again