I’m tired of disappointing you
Because every time I disappoint you, I feel disappointed in myself
I’m sorry that it’s hard for me to talk to you
And easier to talk to people that have hurt me over and over
I guess I just tend to trust the toxic people more
And maybe I’m tired of feeling like my pathetic “issues” are stupid to you
Maybe I’m tired of feeling like I can’t talk to my dad anymore
Without you snooping through the texts
To find something to get upset about me not telling you first
All I want is for your support in my decisions
For you to stop babying me
I’m almost an adult and you're still telling me what you think I need to do
But I feel like at this point I need to figure things out for myself
And first learn how to go through with what I think is right
Before I go through with what actually is right
I’m supposed to be learning
But all that I’m getting anymore
Is the feeling that I’m an even bigger disappointment than the others
Because the fall is a lot worse when you start from higher up
I’m sorry I’m losing your faith