I ache. from the ache on my scalp to the ache in my toes. every inch of my body is sore. From what, I ask? I have very specifically been resting my *** off lately, knowing that when I work myself too hard for too long, I make myself sick. So I've been trying to do good for myself, I'm trying to rest, why aren't I feeling better? Why am I waking every morning feeling like I got hit by a truck the night before?! I am over it.

it hurts so badly that if I let myself feel it all, tears would start falling from my eyes, and they would not stop. So I don't. Or I do, and then make myself stop.

if we were discussing my mental health, I'd say to let yourself, but what is the point with physical pain, really? it won't make the pain fade or even lessen. why give myself a headache on top of it.