I had no say in the matter
whether I was an accident
or planned. I was born into
this world a helpless baby

girl. I depended on you,
the adult, to take care
of me. I couldn’t walk
or talk. I didn’t have teeth. If I

was too much a burden
on you the parent, I shouldn’t
be shamed by your lack
of care. I shouldn’t have to

visit a therapist for sixteen
years! I shouldn’t have to undo
all the damage you’ve done! You’re
dead now; but my life still goes on. You should

have known to get help/should have
listened to your best friend. She warned
you. But no, you didn’t want to face that
or anything else. So, you put on a mask

and hid your real self. And many
believed you. Your performance
was grand! Even my best friends
couldn’t understand years later

when we’ve all grown up
that although the physical abuse
was healed, my internal scarring grew
roots so deep from the emotional

abuse that I will die with the
secrets inside. Because I’ve been shamed
so much not to talk. I didn’t ask to
be born. You didn’t want me. You

should have aborted me. But the legend
of pain lives on.