It's times like these I wish you were still here. A friendship like yours, one I held so dear. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is coming, but what does the future hold? Well that child, I do not know. I do not know how I've managed to make it eight months without you. I do not know why I can't stop thinking. I do not know how much longer I have. And you don't know how much I've been sinking. Falling for all your pretty little lies. Falling deep into the brown of your eyes. I can't help but wonder, do I ever cross your mind? Because I can not seem to put you behind. I do not know how life works, yet you seem to. You seem to be able to play with emotions, not noticing your notions, which seem to be degrading in the long run. All the things you promised are far gone. You gave me hope. Hope that tomorrow would always bring peace. But now I have no way to cope. That last phrase, that's a lie. I'm finally starting to move on. Do I wish you were still in my life, yes. Do I wish you never hurt me, yes. Can I change what happened, no. So this is me, beginning anew. A new chapter in my book starts soon, and I hope this chapter involves... **forgetting you