I’m feeling an absolute fear
I feel a tightness in my chest that won’t go away
And my heart feels like it’s choking
This is the fear that makes me feel like I’m just an ant
Anyone and anything could simply just step on me
Thinking is what this fear is
I can’t have even a split second of time to reflect on myself
To see how I feel
Because I don’t have a dam
I only have a door
And if I open this door everything comes rushing out
Choking me with salty water
And making me gasp for any air I can get
Not a split second to myself, not truly anyway
I can’t deal with people asking me to focus on myself right now
It’s the same as asking me to drown myself