To be completely honest, some days I purposely lean towards the things that trigger my crazy. Because you see, after a certain amount of years, one can get used to the cold air in one's neck, or the dellusional ideas. (I'm going mad. My body's here but I am not really experiencing this moment.) It has become a familiar, but still terrifying place. On days like today I am too curious, if maybe I can still visit it. And every single time I find out I can easily, but it's much harder to leave.