Dearest Diary,
I have been lost without you
At my fingertips
My words get trapped
Behind my lips.

I get scared and confused
Without you by me
I itch for a pencil or keyboard
just to satisfy me

I get stuck in my head
like a prison cell
of my creation, my own hell

The hands that built the wall
are not the ones tearing it down
the hands that broke my mind frame
Are the ones causing me to drown

Time has healed most of my wounds
The scars are all I am left with
However, life is looking brighter
with every single breath.

He completes me, you see,
He sees me, you see
He frees me, brings glee
and hope back to me

The hands that fouled my mind
hold no power, any longer.
Because LOVE is the answer
to all of my questions,
and He answered every prayer
Every wish and  all I wanted.
The eyes that once haunted
my dreams - Are gone
Now my heart holds my song
I only wish each kiss were longer
each embrace just a moment stronger

I wish I could control the darkness
that was bought from Reverie
The doom and gloom
that once consumed me seems to flee
Whenever he walks in the room

Why does this keep happening?
Is this what I have searched for?
Does he hold the key, to every single door?
Am I trapped within a dream or a nightmare
or is this reality?

Reality on its own terms is something I have grown to love
Mainly because He shows me His grace that shines from above
etched in every smile from each of my children
the rolling hills the sound of love,
from glen to glen
and Den to Den

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NOTE TO MY READERS:

Thank you for listening,
Patient reader as I grew from 13 and up
deciphering emotion, thought and feeling
leaving my mind reeling from pain
Leaving me feeling depleted at times