The first time I fell in love,
it was rushed
and packed away in boxes
and moving vans
and letters never to be seen.
(you still haven't seen them).

The first time I fell in love,
you held my hand
And asked me to be yours
and I blushed and said no
and cried as I left because you didn't know.
The first time I fell in love, it was with a boy.

The second time I fell in love,
it was hard and in a place far away.
This time it was through the computer until I could see you again.
You tried to kiss me and I said no and I left without a goodbye.

The third time I fell in love,
I allowed you to kiss me.
Against a wall,
rushed and cold and watched.
I left that time and you watched and knew
I would be back.

The fourth time I fell in love with you,
it was cold again.
You kissed me against a wall,
but this time I didn't know if I wanted it.
You were sad but you held my hand .
You walked me home.
I asked you to kiss me and you asked if I was sure. This time, I was the one crying when I left.

The fifth time I fell in love with you,
I wondered if I had ever stopped.
I wondered when I had really started
And why I hadnt noticed.

It was your birthday before mine and I spent
that day making sure you knew
just how much you were loved.

Suddenly it was my birthday
and I was there,
with you.
Summer and love always end
but
I didn't believe anything could end us.
We played games and every win
and every lose
was rewarded
with a kiss.

You held my hand and I never wanted to let go.
This time when I left, we both cried.
This time, I didn't fall out of love with you,
I knew and I couldn't stop it.

This time,
when you went away for the summer
I wrote you letters
every day.  
When you came back
And drew away,
I was left confused
but still hopeful.
This time,
I was the one who couldn't stop loving you.

The last time I fell in love with you,
It was with a man, not a boy.
The last time I fell in love with you,
You fell out of it with me.