Look I know my own shortcomings very well.
I procrastinate.
I’m lazy.
I have no ambitions.
But there comes a time when you should look inside yourself and look at your own flaws.
I am not your mirror.
Something to yell at because you see yourself and what you could have been.
I have my own demons and flaws that I acknowledge.
It’s time you acknowledge yours.

I don’t understand what makes it so hard for you to understand
That taking someone’s flaws and mocking them with it
Constantly pulling out their weaknesses again and again
Day after day and then comparing them to others
Is not a way to motivate someone
To reach the heights you dreamt them to soar
No what you’re doing is asking a chained and caged bird to fly high
What height?
How high?
To a sky I can’t see?
Because I’m stuck in the darkness of my own self hate, self pity

Guilt is not your weapon to wield
My wounds are not your higher purpose
You do not seek to heal
You say it’s for my own good
But why do you say I used to be so much better than then
Yet they were able to reach such heights?
Is this some kind of cruel punishment that I deserve?
Is it not your own face you’re trying to save?
While stepping on my pride, my being, my person?

I’m trying to be a better person
Next to you
I’m lesser than
I’m just no one.